I was recently watching an auto-play on Youtube about mental health and psychology and a video came on discussing ‘To The Bone’ (the Netflix movie about EDs that was both good and disgusting). This video itself wasn’t triggering, it didn’t upset me and it was well done making points I agreed with and had never considered.
BUT. It did make me want to watch To The Bone. and this is where my question comes in… I consider myself recovered. I didn’t want to watch the film for negative reasons. and I was 90% sure it wouldn’t have a drastically negative effect on me.
But I had to think properly and clearly. It’s a well-known fact that eating disorders are sneaky as shit and regardless of whether someone feels truly recovered if you don’t continuously work on staying in that place, I do believe it could come back. So I did the ‘opposite action’. I watched Embrace – a body positive beautiful documentary. Not because I had relapse thoughts, not even because I thought I might, but because it was a healthier decision. Because it reminded me to ensure I don’t let that sneaky pain in the arse back into my life. And because I had probably even more fun watching Embrace than I would’ve had critically evaluating To The Bone.
You can always make positive changes. You can always work to make your life more positive. You don’t need to be in a bad place to better yourself.